From Big Sky
to Big Earth
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Perception
is all. I love the Big Sky Country. I like to picture it this way: I stand and
slowly turn a whole circle. When I look downward, I see the earth. When I look
outward and upward, the sky is a gigantic bowl, covering and visibly
encompassing, caressing the earth.
I love this
new country of mine, the Big Earth Country. That’s the wonderful thing about
love. There is always room for more. Here I stand and turn a circle and all
around me is the earthy world, the fields and trees and mountains in every
direction. To find sky, I must tilt my head upward. Ah, yes, sky. Here, in Jalisco, the earth is the bowl
holding up the inverted teacup of sky.
Moving into
December with a full moon means the nightlight is as bright as daylight in the
Pacific Northwest in winter.
For days
around the full moon, I see a different world. After daylight comes a short
hour of almost dark. The moon towers above the trees like a giant kite,
dragging behind a tail of the in-between, not dark, not full day. This
shaded-light-night lasts until sun-up bursts full on.
Now that
I’ve waxed poetic, let’s move on to other considerations of love. This month
the full moon drops November with the leftover turkey and introduces December.
Ah,
December, the month of wretched excess. December, the month of guilt.
Have you
written your annual Christmas letter, mailed that stack of Christmas cards
shedding glitter all over the desktop onto the rug? No? Well, me neither. In
fact, by the time I remembered cards, yesterday, I realized if I mailed cards
today they would get to you in February, possibly.
As for a
Christmas letter, maybe I’ll write one next week to send via ghost mail.
Did you
slide your magic plastic and buy the children and/or grandchildren gifts that
you wanted when you were that age? Gifts you would have wanted, had they been
invented? Gifts that make a stack higher than the tree.
Tis the
season for giving. How often we hear that phrase. How quickly we mentally
translate that to “tis the season for buying”.
I suspect
this year the giving/buying season will undergo adjustments by all of us.
Enough with
my Bah Humbug! I got to feeling so Christmas-y that I decorated my tree
already, well before Christmas week.
Here at the
rancho we traditionally gather several times for shared meals. Not this year.
Plates of baked goodies make the rounds. Not this year.
For me, this
is a year to reconnect with friends I’ve neglected.
People email
me, “Are you still alive?” And it is a real concern.
For me, this
is a lingering time of deep solitude. But it is not a time to disconnect from
loved ones.
My friend
Karen said it best, “I will never again take a hug for granted.”
My Christmas
tree is sparse, a new lime tree I planted in my postage-stamp sized front lawn.
I chose to decorate my lime so all who pass by may see it and grin.
Charlie
Brown lives—and loves.
Sondra
Ashton
HDN: Looking
out my back door
December 3,
2020
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