Thanksgiving—Therapy
With Vinegar
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Maybe it’s the phase of the mountains
of the moon. Maybe it’s the juxtaposition of Mars with Saturn on the cusp of the
night sky in the morning fog. Maybe
aliens from within or without have invaded and sucked my energy into a vortex
to be re-used when I am reincarnated as an artist, punished for my past life, forced
to paint a thousand renditions of velvet Elvis.
Such was my state of mind this
morning as I kicked myself metaphorically around my casita, wondering why I
couldn’t feel more thankful.
Tis the Season. I’m supposed to feel
Thankful. Of Good Cheer. Deck the Halls and Folly Lolly Lolly.
Fortunately, for my state of
muggling mind, this morning Leo showed up early to help me wash windows. My
house in tiny but it is walled with windows, not much for walls, just windows,
each one five feet wide and arched to four feet high. I bask in the light,
refuse to block windows with curtains.
Window washing is my least favorite
chore. I make my bed as soon as my feet hit the floor. I cheerfully mop my
floors almost daily. Dirty dishes are NOT left to pro-create in my sink. But I
put off—avoid—ignore washing windows as long as I can.
Unfortunately, or fortunately,
depending on your point of view, Leo, who helps me keep my little corner of my
world looking like a magical garden-park, thinks I should wash windows once a
month. I can successfully outwit him and procrastinate for three or four
months.
So last week I committed to this
week, grumbling all the while. Today is the day. The deal we struck is that I
would wash the windows inside and Leo wash them outside, which requires either
ladders and/or arching one’s body over large pots of foliage.
Armed with spritz bottles of vinegar
and piles of cotton rags, in tandem, we attacked the dirt, dust and window
grime. Leo cranked up his boom box with Christmas tunes, in English. I growled,
under my breath.
As a therapy, window washing might
be under-rated. As the windows began to sparkle, I began to sweat, also good
therapy.
When we finished the windows, Leo,
young enough to be my grandson, said to me, “Do you feel better now?”
“I didn’t know it showed.”
“You lonely, Sondra. You lonely.”
No man that young has the right to
be that perceptive.
It’s a feeling. It will pass. My
windows sparkle. I won’t have turkey for dinner but I could if I wanted. I’m
hardly suffering.
Mostly, I’m content. Holidays aren’t always the best time of
year. I’m surrounded by all kinds of goodness, living in Paradise. My family is
battling Northern elements.
So, yes, Leo. Today I feel lonely. I feel separate.
Not lonesome enough to hop a plane to the frigid north. But
should you want to come south, I’ll meet you in Puerto Vallarta.
Sondra
Ashton
HDN: Looking
out my back door
November
Thanksgiving Week November 22, 2017
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